Coram Deo

1) To teach, train, and disciple women in theology and doctrine.

But as for you, teach what accords with sound doctrine.- Titus 2:1

All Scripture is breathed out by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, and for training in righteousness- 1 Timothy 3:16

Go therefore and make disciples of all nations- Matthew 28:19 

The church is quite lacking in encouraging women to read and study the Scriptures for themselves.  I would love to exhort and challenge women with the Word of God. There are a lot of Christian girls but not a lot of godly women. This calling has been confirmed by numerous people and strangers. I want to encourage this generation to be lovers and defenders of Truth. Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life (John 14:6) and because the truth will set us free (John 8:32)

“All theology is simply an outworking of the gospel in our daily lives.”

- This is necessary as each generation twists the truth and we need people to stand to biblical standards of truth instead of accepting faulty doctrine. We need to point out heresy, false teachers, and wolves dressed as sheep. Theology is studying God and the more you study God, the more you are closer to being like him, to being a godly person. I want them to understand why God puts difficult situations and suffering and trials into their life. I want them to have a richer relationship with the Lord and be completely overwhelmed by grace. I want them to study God’s character and who He is and be utterly amazed. It will change their perspective of life, their prayer life, and how they love and serve others. Strong women of God will exalt and glorify Christ. 

2) To open up my home to others

We ought therefore to show hospitality to such people so that we may work together for the truth.- 3 John 5:8

Practice hospitality- Romans 12:13

I want to have people over for tea and have conversations about the Lord. I want to use my home to minister and bring comfort to the suffering and broken. I want to bless single mothers and widows and people who are struggling by cooking for them and talking about the bread of life (John 6:35). I want it to be a place God is glorified, where memories are made in fellowship and godly community, and the gospel is shared. I want to pray over people’s families and have Bible studies. I want it to be a home overflowing with joy and love and to bless people. I want to follow Lydia’s hospitable example and invite missionaries or pastors who are in town to have a place to stay. (Acts 16:15) I want to wisely steward all the resources God has given me to His glory. 

3) Children- Children are an amazing way to leave a gospel legacy to future generations.  (Deuteronomy 4:9; 6:9) I know so many people who said that they weren’t born into Christian families but their neighbors took them to church and shared the gospel. Now they’re saved! If the Lord is willing, I hope for opportunities to bring children to church with me. They tend to have more open ears and softened hearts. Therefore, they are not deadset in their opinions and hardened in their ways. I pray that the Lord will help me train my children in righteousness (Proverbs 22:6) and that the Lord will use me model biblical womanhood to all children. 

4) Missions- If God calls me to the overseas mission field anytime, I will go. But as of now, I am called to support missions financially and through prayer. Since there is so much nominalism in America, I know that I am called to be on mission here currently. Every country is a mission field since every country needs Christ. 

5) Work- This is probably the most confusing and unclear calling regarding my vocation. To sum it up, “We must do worldly jobs, but if we do them with sanctified minds, they become an offering to God.”- A.W. Tozer It was a huge idol for me before and now I’m slowly realizing that I work hard for the glory of God, not for money or prestiege but because I want to be a diligent worker for the Lord. There’s something strange about a businesswomen giving away her money to the poor and spending time with the poor. This is an incredible way of evangelism and to be a light in the secular workplace (Matthew 5:16).  Later on I can invest my money or own real estate properties and get rent from that. Or I can do side projects like teach the piano or play it at weddings. 

6) Someone to do this with and co-labor for the gospel together-

“Falling in love in a Christian way is to say, ‘I am excited about your future and I want to be part of getting you there. I’m signing up for the journey with you. Would you sign up for the journey to my true self with me? It’s going to be hard but I want to get there.”- Tim Keller

This goes back to number #1. I have such a strong uncanny calling about this and I know it’s strange for a girl to be into theology. This man must be able to support and encourage me in this field. He doesn’t have to be a pastor but he has to be supportive of me discipling other women.  It would be perplexing if I was the spiritual leader and had to baby him or if his doctrine was unsound as this would contradict and give a wrong message to the younger women I would be discipling. This is important that he must be like-minded.  My train of thought: When I was 16, I learned about Reformed Theology. Most 16 year old boys who were Christian were saying things like “Jesus is my homeboy” which did not really fare well with me.  Also that’s why I’ve never dated – not many men are biblically sound or theologically mature to lead me as I want my husband to. Women are to submit to their husbands and that means that I will have to submit under his doctrine. This could cause huge division regarding what to teach our children, what church to go to, how we react to certain situations, etc. Marriage isn’t about me- the woman was made for the man. I must serve and submit to my (future) husband so that he can do a better job in succeeding in his workplace, to lessen the burden of his ministry outside of the home, and to help him glorify God. 

So this is me writing to myself on a Friday night on February 3, 2012. A woman who’s restless and excited to be prepared for what God has called her to do. A woman who is weak and foolish yet “God chose what is foolish in the world to shame the wise; God chose what is weak in the world to shame the strong”- 1 Corinthians 1:27

 I can’t stop grinning because I know that God has bigger and better plans that could glorify Him more than I could ever dream. Just my little tidbits for tonight so if anyone is reading this, thanks for reading this huge essay over the internet ^_^

I don’t know what the will of God is but I know that I want to obey it. Lord, take my life and use it to the fullest extent to bring salvation and make your glory known to the world.